Thursday, October 9, 2014


Hi. My name is Lauren and I'm one very bad blogger.
Blogging used to be such a part of my life. I'd check up on my favorite blogs daily, blog weekly and I had a ton of "blog friends" that lived inside my computer. But somehow in the hustle and bustle of daily life, the isolating, and the trying to simplify, I've lost this art. It makes me sad. I remember the days that I loved blogging, but now it is kind of starting to feel like a chore. It feels like something I have to do, something I feel obligated to do...and I don't want it to be like that. I think the hard part about blogging for me right now is that I don't have a niche. There's not a whole lot of other blogs out there about being a 24 year old, living at home, and unemployed. I've found myself distancing myself from blog friends, mostly because of intense jealousy in my heart. I know that blogging is full of highlight reels and everyone has struggles, but somedays, it is HARD to read about others successes. It's hard to see people young and in love and having babies and teaching children and to think that I could have all of that, but I don't because I'm super messed up. It's hard to read about people working out and eating yummy foods when all I want to do is lose weight, exercise obsessively, and restrict my intake. It just makes it hard to relate.

But, I'm wanting to jump back on the blogging train. I know, I know, I've said it before. I'm probably going to fail a few more times before I pull myself together, but I think this could be a good thing. I'm currently in the process of trying to put my life back together and things are coming along quite nicely. I'm dating a wonderful guy. I'm almost a month in solid recovery. Good things are happening. I want to get back to the days when I blogged pictures and baked apple pies and did fun blog things. I want to get back to the days when my life didn't revolve around an eating disorder. So, while the eating disorder thing may be mentioned some, I'm going to try to keep my rants to a separate blog that is more private and keep this blog about me and who I am outside of that. I think I'm going to start by sharing 15 facts about myself at the moment. Yes, that sounds fun.

  1. I like doing word searches and logic puzzles in my free time.
  2. I need to get back into the reading groove. Currently, I'm not reading anything, but the boyfriend is trying to get me into Game of Thrones.
  3. I spent the summer in Georgia two summers back and I miss that place. That internship was really fun and a great growing experience.
  4. I'm doing laundry for the first time in forever today.
  5. I sleep with a teddy bear (Allie), a puppy (Puppy), and a flamingo (Flammy).
  6. I'm currently watching my way through the Star Wars series with my boyfriend and we've decided that I make an awful fangirl. Jar Jar Binks is my fave, but I do get why everyone hates him.
  7. I really want to work on another quilt (it would be my third) and make one for my future child's nursery. Yes, I'm already planning out the nursery.
  8. On the topic of future children, I really like the names Eloise, Annie, and Mary Catherine. I don't know about future boy children yet.
  9. I have some things that I want to sell on ebay but I'm too lazy to take pictures. I just want more money out of these items than Plato's Closet will give me.
  10. Even though I have a Mac, iPad, and iPhone, I really don't like Apple.
  11. Leggings are still my most favorite item.
  12. I got super excited that it was getting cold and I really wanted to pull out my long sleeve things, but then it got warm again.
  13. I think I'm going to start working on my Christmas list soon. I'm really excited about this Christmas!
  14. I really want to bake some cupcakes right now, but I don't want to make 24 of them and have that many staring at me all weekend.
  15. I have a kitty named Fitz that is super cute. 
And that's 15 facts about me! Yay blogging!

1 comment:

  1. Annie is a good name. I'm just sayin'.

    I've found it hard to blog lately, too; I think after so many years of doing it, it's hard to figure out how your niche has changed, especially when it feels you've gone from having one to feeling like you don't. I'm excited to hear you're jumping back into it!