Monday, November 7, 2011

learning to love is hard.

I'm serious. Sometimes I feel like I never get a break. I get so frustrated with people because they blow things out of proportion and they act like we're still in middle school. Um, sorry. We're in college now. I feel like God is really trying to prove to me that he is the center of my life. He is the one thing that I can build my foundation upon. Laura Story sings in "Faithful God" (one of my favorite songs) about how God is "For You are the love that never leaves, the friend that won't deceive, You're the one sure thing". I'm trying so hard to lean on this, but I've felt like I keep getting the short end of the stick. If you notice, I don't have twitter on my sidebar any more. I like having it there so that people don't have to follow me to see what I'm up to. It's like a mini-blog. I like having  my twitter not private. But, because of an unfortunate set of events, I've been forced to make that private. If you want to follow me, just request it and I'll approve it. I'm really not that picky. I feel like losing my roommate last week and now a run in with another suite-mate this week is about to drive me up a wall. It is really hard to love someone when they are screaming in your face and when they talk about how horrible a person you are. But, as I wrote about last week, we must love like Jesus even when it's hard. In the end, God will work it all out. It is not my duty to make sure that "justice is served" in every situation. It may seem really difficult because things don't seem fair. 

And in my situation, I finally caught a break. Another room has become available and I'm moving into it ASAP. I'm hoping and praying that all the little details will work out, but I know that a miracle happened tonight. I know that God is watching over me and meeting my every need. Even though it's frustrating to have to pack everything up and take down everything that you just put up- I know it will be worth it. It is hard to get along with people you love- it is harder to get along with people you don't like. It's hard to get along with people you are similar with- it is hard to get along with people that are your polar opposite. But. God had a plan for this situation. As he wrote in Jeremiah 29:11, he has a plan for this semester. Even when things look rough. Even when we're in "exile" and we can't see the way out, he has a plan for us to prosper and to give us a future.

1 comment:

  1. i'm praying, Lauren! learning to love is so, so hard, especially when it's people you live with!