Honestly, I don't know where to start. It all kind of began as I went through my Google Reader this morning. I came across these three posts that all stirred something up.
Yes, today is Valentine's Day.
Deep down inside, I really like Valentine's Day. It's a day where everyone wears pink, you can eat chocolate without people thinking you're depressed, and there's flowers and sparkles and cupcakes. Oh- and you can send out Disney Princess valentines. It's perfect. I mean, basically, it should be my favorite day of the year. But, there's also this idea that you should have a special someone. And, well, I'm lacking in that department at the moment.
I've come to the conclusion in the last few months that I'm getting old. People my age are getting engaged and planning weddings. People my age are getting married. And while I'm nowhere near this point in my life, part of me has already started wondering. Wondering if. If it's ever going to happen. (I know, I'm twenty. That's no exactly old maid status). And suddenly, these dreams of being a mommy and a wife have become an area of spiritual attack. I'm finding it hard to find joy in my situation.
Last night, I was visiting with a dear new friend that I've met since being at HC. I was expressing my discontentment with my current situation, and she very clearly understood something I could not. She told me that "If God is calling you to be a wife and mother, he will bring someone to you". It's an incredibly simple concept. It's something I say all the time when I say "God, may your will be done in my life". Here's the thing. This "calling" persay, doesn't come in my time, it comes in God's time. He promises to never leave me or forsake me. He always keeps his promises. If it is His will, it Will be done.
As my dear blogging friend Annie puts it:
In the meantime, i'm asking myself how i can be and show love to everyone else in my life, because valentine's day shouldn't just be about romantic love. it should be about powerful, overwhelming, Jesus love, too. it should be about celebrating the love we do have, rather than moping about the love we don't.He's got something bigger planned. I really don't need to worry about it. I really don't need to wander. I just need to set aside this special little day to celebrate His love. It's greater than any other "love" that I may come across here on this earth.
we set days aside to celebrate His humble birth and His resurrection victory. let's set this one aside to celebrate His incomprehensible love.
|via The Hope Movement|